Thursday is Weigh In Day

I know, I know. You are thinking “but Jamie, isn’t your weigh in day on Friday?” – yes. 

I like to have my weigh ins on Friday, but I have to alter it this week.

You see, my little sister (well, she’s twelve now – time flies!) is graduating from the elementary school and is moving on up to the middle school. My mom wants to make a big deal out of it and so we are going out to dinner on Thursday. I figured I’ll get her a card and maybe a few other little things and that will be that; she’ll be a happy camper. 

…Going out to dinner doesn’t sound so bad, right? I can typically log everything before hand and do extra exercise the days leading up to the dinner so that everything is nice and ready to go. Unfortunately, my sister loves Old Country Buffet. My mom will rarely take her there because it is expensive and because…it’s a buffet and she has that fat kid issue like me 😉 

So because this is something special, we are going to take her there. 

At first I was all disgusted because I love eating there. I love their mac and cheese, mashed potatoes and gravy, fish, and their fried chicken. YUM! And not to mention that particular cake that they have. Oh my. As you can see, I am not very good with holding back. I tried it once when we went there shortly after I started my diet and I had a salad and told myself that was all I could have. I ended up eating much more than I had normally done and I am sure it was because I tried to restrict. Silly me.

I was only disappointed and disgusted because Thursday is the day before my weigh-in. I have a cheat day on Friday after my weigh in, but if I did so on Thursday I would potentially damage my loss for Friday. So needless to say I was unhappy. 

Then it started to hit me that I could make my weigh in for this week on Thursday and then replace my cheat day on Friday with Thursday after my weigh in. I probably won’t have as high of a loss on Thursday as I would Friday, but at least it wouldn’t throw me off. 

So now I am a happy camper. I am going to work really hard for the next handful of days to ensure that I have the best weigh in that I could possibly have Thursday. From there, I will get to eat lots and lots of yummy and probably very unhealthy foods. 

😉

So let’s make this week count, guys!

-J 

Confirmation of Disgust

Yep. It’s about what I thought. 

I went from 181.8lbs to 186.5lbs this week. 

I could say that it is all from Easter, but I wouldn’t be being very honest  now would I?

I’ve been going downhill for weeks and weeks now. 

This was just the largest set back that has occurred.

People have tried to tell me that it is water weight and that it will be gone next week, but I don’t think so. I mean there is definitely a chance that not all of this is from the food that I have eaten and that my body will readjust as this new week passes, but to be honest I don’t doubt that most of it is a real gain. 

I ate so much food. 

So so so much food.

Not only did I eat more than I have at once in a while, but I hardly exercised. 

I went back to my old ways entirely. 

And you know what? It scares me so much.

How.. after all of this time and all of this success could I so easily go back to my fat kid ways that I have hated so terribly?

I’m absolutely disgusted with myself.

I am going to keep my head up and attempt a normal week, but I have been trying to get back on track for days now.

Ugh. 

That is the best way to describe how I feel about everything right now.

I know I’ll snap out of it. It’ll only take a few good days to get me going again. 

I can do this.

I have done it in the past.

It feels just like when I first started.

I feel like I’ve back tracked so far mentally – despite only gaining 5lbs. 

I’ll write a nightly update and we’ll see how I did today. Maybe making myself write it out later will help me stay on track. 

I vow to also write if I am facing temptation OR if I let temptation get the best of me and am stuffing my face. 

…Hopefully that doesn’t have to happen.

-J